Can you stop your brain from thinking?

Every single second of the day
Our mind keeps rolling
Eyes staring at an object
Breathing long and hard
To think deeply

It happens mostly when the surroundings are quiet
Where no one is talking to you
Not even the noise of a mosquito
But just feeling your own heartbeat

Whenever I kept myself quiet
I am thinking
Whenever I am alone
I am thinking
Whenever I go to bed
I am thinking
And whenever I have fell asleep
My mind is still moving

Have your brain ever stop from thinking?
I faced difficulties in controlling my mind
As I have tonnes of issues to think of
Every single day
Without a miss

I trust that I am over-concerned sometimes
Though I knew that I should not worry
On things that will never change
As it is pointless
Even I have become insane

I am learning to be calm
Trying to be cool at things
That subsequently will affect my mood

Some people says I am very emotional
Yes, women indeed are the same human kind
But don't forget that men do cry
And I experienced it myself

I used to cry very often
As I felt hard to keep things
Deep inside my heart
And it keeps running through my mind
As if it had just happened yesterday

I shed a tear when I upset
I cry when I am sad
I shout when I am frustrated
And I kept quiet when I am deeply hurt
Just because my mind couldn’t stop from thinking

Sharing of thoughts

When two hearts are in one
We tend to share feelings
When he is happy, she will be happy
And when he is upset, eventually she would be sad too

Loving a person doesn't mean possession
As there are obstacles ahead
That God wants to test
To affirm that the love is pure and real

Seeing your loved one with another man / woman
How would you feel?
Happy for them
Hoping that they can find their happiness

But deeply inside, badly hurt
For not being together to share the happy moments
Because we trust that we can do better
And if we love each other, why not?
Its the decision
Or is it just blamed as Fate?

I trust that we have the right to choose
We can make our own decisions
Though I do believe in fate
That God has made an arrangement for us

Hope for a better tomorrow
As the right time will come
With the right person
Just be patient and everything shall be alright

Boyfriend blueprint

After several years of searching
After several years of dating
Why I still haven't found the right guy?
Perhaps I should make a new boyfriend wish list?

What's your mental blueprint or Mr. Perfection?
Some says outlook
And some says inner value

How about starting with a must-have list?
Honest
Observant
Sense of humour
Understanding
Matured

Craving for this type of guy doesn't mean he is good for me
CLEO says I have repeatedly go for men
Who is cloned of each other
And I ended up being solo again on a Sat night

Its time to wake up
Analysing guys I have dated
The common value in them
Dominating or obsessed with me

Strong and silent man
Is averagely suitable for being strong in his belief
Confident and decision-maker
But I faced difficulties in guessing what is in his mind

I prefer a man who can share
As I always wanted to be a part of his life
Sharing the happy and unhappy moments
Because I trust the power of love
Of two person who has combined their hearts

Smooth sweet-talker
Is very common for men
As every woman likes to be praised
Making us walking on air and feeling sexy

Sadly, they are fast movers
Come fast and and disappear fast too
Getting non-genuine compliments are meaningless
Like being rehearsed for million times
Now where is the respect?

Wild and unpredictable
Are those who hates routine and loves adventure
But at least we enjoy life
I am doing something that makes myself happy
Enjoying every moments
Isn't it wrong?

Artistic and bohemian
Men who write poems or songs
Impressed me tentatively
For his effort, creativity and patience
As it is not an easy task to perform

Love is patient
Love is kind
Love is not jealous
I am loving myself first before loving others!

Surprises

Life is like a bed of roses
Varieties of colours
That are of different meanings
I have received Red, Pink and Lavender

Red means Sincere Love & Respect, Courage & Passion
Pink means Grace and Gentility, the rose of sweet thoughts
Lavender means Love at first sight and enchantment

In terms of the quantity, I have received the following:-
1 Rose - Love at the first sight; you are the one
3 Roses - I love you
11 Roses - You are my treasured one; the one I love most in my life
12 Roses - Be my steady

Though we tend to tell men
Don't waste their money for flowers
It will die the next day or two
Eventually our love will die too
But how many women out there don't like flowers?
I believe that it would be very sweet
When the unexpected did happened

Sometimes there are things that we don't really expect
Yes, I mean no expectation at all
And this is what I called "surprise"

Sometimes we expect things to happen
Eventually it did not
You start to feel upset
Asking why it doesn't
Asking why he doesn't understand
Is he not thinking?
Or he doesn't bother at all?

Don't hope
Don't be too confident
And don't overestimate
Then you will feel better
As people says "the more you hope, the more you upset"
Somehow it does make sense

I won't be surprised
Most of the times
Not too sure whether man's thought is way too simple
Or whether I am too smart in foreseeing things
But I love unexpected surprises

Men tend to act first
As the outcome is not an important issue
Women tend to analyse
As the pros and cons have to be considered before deciding

It is just like shopping
Men will buy the things they like at their first sight
Without comparing or further analysis
Women will need to shop almost all the shops
Thorough analysis has to be done before deciding
Because "Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus"

Sixth sense

Do you believe that woman has sixth sense?
How true is it?
Why are we having the supernatural power?
Or is it just superstitious?
My first time ever bad experience this morning
Has ring my bell
To be extra alert whenever I am alone
Which I always do

Stories of robberies, harassment and even murder
Are the main issues of the daily press?
Reading the news has alerted me
Experience it myself has worsen the situation
Taking taxi every morning to the LRT
Has been a common topic
Of taking down taxi number plates
And alert at all times
The Chinese taxi driver at his 40s
Picked and send me to the LRT
He was active, friendly and talkative
Sharing on general issues and his wife
Asking on my job and my hometown
Was okay for me all this while
It was bad when he started talking in his jargon
That he has to be aggressive to get me on the taxi
That he has to look into my eyes to know what I am thinking
And got me in his taxi eventually

I was freaked out
As I am fear that he will really put his words into action
Upon reaching my destination, he complimented a lady passerby
“Gosh, this is super big size”
What a pervert!
I don’t mind if you keep this to yourself but not to me
I relieved and got down immediately when I reach

I was late for work as usual
Due to the habit of oversleeping
And preparing myself in a slow motion mode
Each and every morning
Once I got down from the LRT
I walked towards my office
Where I have to pass by a bridge
And cross the road to get to the opposite road

When I was walking across the bridge
Listening to my musics
I noticed an old Malay guy aged at his 40s
Staring at me while walking towards me
His wicked smile scares me off
I sense that he wanted to touch me
With the action of hugging me with his both hands
Holy s*, it was a disaster
I screamed so loud and ran off
I am sure that my voice is really loud
That also scares him off
The other two ladies ahead of the bridge looked at me
And they are being frightened too

I was holding my heart tight
Telling myself to calm down
And I breathe hard

First thing I do is texting my close friends
I can only think 3 of them
As I don’t really think I should have share
Or maybe scare my friends off
But I have no one
Nobody to talk to
So I texted A, B and C.
A replied me saying that he will call me later
B called me straight away to calm me down
And C has no reply until now
Looks like I have no one to depend on
And I always don’t know who to call
At times when I need someone

I was confused and struggling
Whenever people ask me for an emergency number
Is there anyone out there who is willing to?

Fear was in me that I acted spontaneously
It was my first time ever
And I hope that this is the last time as well
Thank God that I am safe!

How to survive on bad Break-Ups

Everyone in your social circle knew about it
Each and every one of them has an opinion
As to who was at fault, and why
Yes, it hurts

I tend to recall every positive memory
Mourn over what I perceive is lost
And, he's gone
Nothing will bring him back

He was cruel
He was heartless
He wasn't appreciating
And, he wasn't really into me

I do have to get out of my house
Get myself hanged with friends
And yes, guys
Other guys
I trust that sooner or later
I might find a few nice ones
and the misery I experienced would go away

Honesty is my main requirement
To trust oneself and to face the real ME
To assess the problems I faced all the while
Which involved both parties

He's no longer around
He's not changing
He's not going to do anything anymore
So I have to work on it on my own

People tend to remind themselves
Don't repeat the same mistake twice
But how many of you here agree that love is blind?
It does make sense when you are in love

Though life is so wonderful
With passion, hope and joy
With your loved ones and friends
Somehow it ends with ONLY you

Independent comes in to substantiate
Most of the women are strong
After they are deeply hurt
Several times in a row

Learning to stand on my own
Is never an easy task
As I have carry the nickname of "Loner" since the age of 13.

Purpose of life

I tend to ask myself
Why am I here?
What am I doing?
Have you ever doubt?

I tend to question myself
Why am I doing this?
What exactly I want?
Have you ever feeling lost?

Confused
Indecisive
Lack of confidence
You name it

Sometimes I stop and think
Sometimes I follow my instinct
Sometimes I just move forward
And sometimes I do regret

Every single minute
We need to make decisions
Decisions that may have a great impact
On your friends, families or even on your life

It is always an opportunity cost
To choose from one to another
After many thoughts and comparison
Which may not be accurate afterall

Human being tend to be very emotional
Doing things blindly
Never thought of the consequences
Which may hurt others

What is the purpose of life?
Study for a better job
Work for a better career path
Utilising the money for your own good

Will you forgo everything for money?
WIll you treasure everything that you have?
And will you be appreciated for what you have been doing all this while?

Ask yourself
Why?
Why?
and why?

I trust fate and God's arrangement
Though we need to depend on ourselves
At times where we can't just let things happen
As things happened for a reason

Love yourself
Love your family
Appreciate them
Eventually you will feel relieved
As everything has been prearranged
Where they can live
With or without you
Happily ever after

Appreciation

Life is too short to wake up with regrets
So love the people who treat you right
Love the ones who don't
Just because you can

Believe everything happens for a reason
If you get a second chance
Grab it with both hands
If it changes your life
Let it be

Kiss slowly
Forgive quickly
As God never said life would be easy
He just promised that it would be worth it

Little keys can open big locks
Simple words can express great thoughts
Let us enjoy the great moments
As if there is no tomorrow

Gift of love

It's a gift for us to be here in this wonderful world
It's a gift to our parents for us being brought to this reality world
and it's a gift for being a human to learn to survive in this practical world

What's a perfect gift for you?
Flowers?
Chocolates?
or Diamond Ring?

Perfect defines as something that can't be seen or touched
As it can only be felt by heart and soul
Which can't be explained by words
Giving it wholeheartedly
Without the hope of having something in return
That's called "gift of love"